life.

gone.

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mikeyzz asked: thats really cool =)
I would go back but I cant. im super broke right now. haha thats pretty cool
where do you work?

club monaco… i saw some of the pictures you posted.

you were wearing the trapeze coat, very nice. 

… i have actually had the pleasure of dressing paolo at the greta constantine fashion show last fall… he’s really nice.

i declare STUDWAR

mikeyzz:

thatlorenzo:

Filipino International Model Paolo Roldan dons the latest label studwar, a combination a military motif, dressed with an earthy color palette. Highlighting fitted silhouettes, functional wear.

I admire him.

hey its paolo. if u are ever in toronto. visit nomad, he’s the buyer for the store thats how he got discovered. my coworkers sister is his girlfriend.

(Source: edlorenzo)

bfsblovesfarmer asked: fellow team KOREAn!!!
guess who this is?! *teehee*
miss you and your sass <3

p.s. hint: egg tarts

i love youuuu

why do i always find myself going back

my mind wants to move on but my heart doesn’t

eff this

so i got my answer. should i just confess now

When I feel broken, all I got to do is look in your eyes because I know just one glance will make me feel whole again.

gnouvnairb:

ditto booboo <3 153 :D

it’s over tonight

i just need to know if we are possible

i did it

i deleted your phone number. i just couldn’t do it anymore.

its like a reflex. i just have to text you which i shouldn’t have done today and yesterday but i did it anyways even after i told myself i wouldn’t.

so there. thats the only way to stop texting you. its done.

i need self control. still learning it.

for the past few days…

i have been constantly updating my status about how i feel. 

i also tried to get over it…

then i went on your page and it says “let’s take it slow”

what the hell! all im confused about is if that is directed to me. 

i just need to know. we’ll take it slow, but i just need to know if you are even interested or else i am just fooling myself.

is there even a point to any of this?

hey! i know i have been gone for the longest time and i have not updated any of my blogs for like months. but the reason why im writing now is because i am quiet confused. i have talked to a couple of my friends about this issue but i still want to think about it really hard. i just can’t let go. and that is my biggest problem.

…..

i know that nothing significant happened but define significant? like yah we’ve texted and talked a lot and stuff but in some odd way thats pretty significant right? just a little bit? or am i just saying that in order to make myself feel better. probably right?

yes! i am very complicated and yes! i do think too much. and that is one of the things that i really hate about myself. overthinking, overanalyzing, over… overdoing everything.

i know that i need to let go cuz its actually making me depress to a certain degree… i mean before i started liking this person i was pretty happy. now its just too much.

theres basically three options:

1) see if they are interested 

2) don’t tell them that i like them and get over them ASAP

3) find a new distraction

what to do. what to do. what to do…

i even told myself that i would not communicate with them at all today. but guess what it aint happening. we’re chatting at the moment on skype. i am so lame. i need to get over it, like NOW!

i really want to be on tumblr more often but i cant seem to do it. im on twitter, again, so maybe the tumblr thing will kick in soon?

twitter.com/renz.araja